Giving it to God

Ok, so a lot has happened over the last month. My life has taken lots of ups and downs. Work has been so crazy that I have gone through a myriad of emotions. The Dr. that I work for is currently battling breast cancer. He has undergone several of his chemo treatments. The first treatment knocked him off his feet, causing him to loose 21 pounds in 1 1/2 weeks due to vomiting and diarrhea. They backed off on his medication load and have him taking treatments weekly now instead of every three weeks...and he has improved some...but he is still very weak. He is 78 years old and has been VERY healthy up until this point in his life. He has lived for working at his medical practice and has been working in the same little small town for about 40 years. Because of the importance of the office to him, we have been trying to keep it open. However, in about 1 1/2 weeks our NP is leaving for Maine...meaning that I will basically be the sole provider in the office. Had I a few more years of experience under my belt, this might not be so daunting, but as it is I have not been out of school very long and I find the idea of such responsibility to be overwhelming. The biggest variable is whether or not the Dr. will even be able to come into the office. He has been trying to come in daily for the last 2 weeks. He typically comes in in the afternoons and sees a few patients...but he is so very weak from his treatments. It is very hard to see him like that because as long as I have known him he has been very full of life and not at all looked or acted his age. Apparently, life can age you very quickly if it has a mind to. I have really been trying to give all of this to God. I have really struggled with what I should do about all of this....do I start looking for another job, knowing that if I leave the office will have to close, do I quit my job and take some time off, or do I tough it out...and at what point do I go from being a practitioner practicing under physician supervision to one that is improperly supervised....lots of tough questions that I battle with daily. I am praying that God will give me the strength to give it all to Him...it's like Jarrod always says, "God has a plan for your life that is better than your plan." I just have to be willing to trust Him enough and believe that He can do anything...and find freedom through surrender....but that is so much harder to do than it is to type it into this blog...I think that it is going to take a lot of time seeking God's face, and prayer. Thankfully, God has blessed me with an amazing and supportive husband. I cannot imagine how much worse my situation would be if Zack was not supportive of me, and if he was not willing to support whatever decision that I end up making. I know that all of this has been just as hard, if not in some ways harder, on him as it has been on me. Thank goodness we serve a BIG God. :)

Nana Gave it to Her

I don't know if the rest of you watch food network as religiously as I do, but there is this commercial on FN that I just love. There is a young woman that just married into a family and doesn't really feel that she fits in. She wants to help prepare the meal, but her husbands sisters keep taking the old well used recipe cards from her. And her husband whispers in her ear "Nana gave it to her". The poor girl just looks out of place at dinner and then as they are leaving Nana helps her put her coat on...and she finds a worn recipe card in her pocket. Well, I love that commercial. because I love to cook and love the idea of being "Nana". I would love to have secret family recipes that everyone wanted. As it is, I am still learning how to cook. I am a cookbook collector and love finding and trying out new recipes. Some turn out wonderfully, while others well...not so great. My husband is more than willing to encourage my love for cooking, because it means that he gets to eat home cooked meals rather than frozen preprepared meals. He is funny about food though, he likes to take pictures of the new meals that we have. He says that way if we ever do not have food to eat he could look back at the pictures...but I mean really if we don't have food to put on the table will we really have electricity to allow him to look back at the pictures on his computer? :) men and their food! :)

Sewing

Hello all, I just thought that I would blog a little bit about my newly found passion for sewing. My wonderful husband got me a sewing/embroidery machine for Christmas (2006). Ever since then I have been trying to teach myself how to sew. I have to admit, I absolutely LOVE it! I try to sew as much as I can. I started out simply and have been trying to teach myself a new technique with almost every project. I will admit that there are definitely time when I want to pull out my hair because things are not going well, but for the most part it is very enjoyable. I like being able to take fabric and make it into something really cute and personal.My first project was some cute burp clothes for a friends baby. Then I moved on to A-line dresses.

Escaping reality

Well, I am making great strides in joining the 21st century.I have started a blog, and I have joined Paperbackswap.com...I am quite enjoying it. I have been having a rough time at work recently...not exactly what I would call a great work environment. Everyone at work has been on edge ever since we found out that our boss has cancer. I cannot really blame anyone at work for this, seeing as everything is up in the air. It just gets to be overwhelming. That is what is so great about the swap sites. I can go online and order books, movies, or CD's to be sent to my home. I have enjoyed getting to escape my reality and travel to different times and places in the pages of a well written book or come to life on the TV screen through a well made movie.

Some Favorites:

Movies:
Last of the Mohicans
She's the man
Pride and Prejudice
Just like heaven
My fair Lady

Books:
Pride and prejudice
The Count of Monte Cristo
The Three Musketeers
Anne of Green Gables
This Present Darkness